Trusting

Dear readers/bloggers,

So as you can tell I can get real busy and not get on here for some time (like about a month or so) and when its summer I am running around enjoying the beauty of it. 

Today I want to talk about trust - its something that is one of the greatest things and yet one of the hardest things to do.    The definition of trust is

firm belief in the reliability, truth, ability, or strength of someone or something  and/or confidence placed in a person by making that person the nominal owner of property to be held or used for the benefit of one or more others.

When we trust at a human level a lot of times that trust is broken, hurt, changed, and even strengthened.  When we trust at a godly level that trust is always upheld yet on Gods end and not always ours.  

I have a personal story of this trust and it has to do with my personal life of being a Nurse.  Now I have the challenges of trust and especially with God because like you know I can be a worrier and yet God has always proven faithful and I learn that when I worry I am not trusting Him.  

Recently I have been struggling with working the Nightshift/3rd shift and I have worked it for 2and1/2 years going on 3 years.   About a couple months ago I was itching to get off of it and started looking for other jobs as well as asking about moving to days.  There were some that looked amazing and like the perfect fit but they just didn't happen and there were others that were also nightshift so I didn't really want to take those.  There was even one that I was offered and was an amazing job however I turned it down.   

I remember during that time the Lord said "remain faithful"  and this showed me that I was to trust Him and remain faithful in where I was/am.  

I did and things were great and then very recently I felt the urge and knew that it was time to get off of nightshift and I have been praying and many others have been praying as well.   I put in the request for dayshift and of course that would take time.    During this time I was anxious, nervous, and getting sort of a cold feet and actually told my manager "Im not sure if I want dayshift."   I couldn't believe I said that when I have truly wanted it.  I will be honest with you and its the fact that there are so many knowns yet unknowns about dayshift and they can even kinda scare me or make me fearful.  I realized in this time that I truly need to trust the GOD of the unknown the GOD of all things and lay my requests before HIM first and cast my anxieties and cares on HIM.  

I went though a little battle in my head physically and spiritually and one Friday my manager called me to see how everything was and she said "Do you have a minute to talk about days?"   Without hesitation I said "YES."    She then said I want to know whats holding you back.   I then preceded to tell her of my fears and reservations.   I threw in this one small detail and she then said "Julie someone is leaving this certain position and I just spoke with her this morning it is not public knowledge but if you want it its yours."   I said YES!   

The whole week and especially the day before that my anxiety was through the roof.   When she said that and I said YES.   I looked to GOD and said I'm sorry for not trusting you.   

I have not gone on dayshift yet and this past week I was told it could be this schedule or the next schedule.  Of course I have gone through the little struggles of is it gonna happen maybe I should start looking somewhere else and apply somewhere else.   I even went on an interview this week.   AGAIN my friends,  ALMIGHTY GOD remained faithful and even when I lacked in my trust or maybe didn't put all my trust in HIM,  he proved again that HE IS GOD!  

A couple days ago the new schedule came out and the line that my name is on said DAYS!  

I know this is a small and simple story but I say all this to say to you that GOD is in the details and the very small/specific things about us.   I also say that HE remains faithful and HE cares.  I also say that even when we try to take things into our own hands and still trust HIM but think that we need to get it done ourselves,  HE PUSHES IN, PARTS THE SEA, CALMS OUR MINDS, and UPHOLDS TRUE TRUST!

Lovingly,

Jules

PS 

Jeremiah 17:7-8

“But blessed is the one who trusts in the Lord,
whose confidence is in him.
They will be like a tree planted by the water
that sends out its roots by the stream.
It does not fear when heat comes;
its leaves are always green.
It has no worries in a year of drought
and never fails to bear fruit.”